The Curse on Me - Because I Write

I never say I am always right,
I just write
I never am a beacon of light
I just write
I never claim to have any insight
I just write

When I see sadness, I sympathise
That is me as I am
When I see confusion, I empathise
That is me as I am
When I see happiness, I rejoice
That is me as I am

For what purpose am I being judged
Because I write?
For what truth has my right been violated
Because I write?
For what need am I to be ousted
Because I write?

Good is good, wrong is wrong
I write what I write; do not judge me for who I am
For the weak, I pen words which are strong
I write what I write; do not judge me for who I am
For the broken-hearted, I pen words which comfort and inspire
I write what I write; do not judge me for who I am
For the determined. I pen words which aspire
I write what I write; do not judge me for who I am

I write as a woman, as a woman would understand
For I am a woman
I write as a mother, as a child would understand
For I am a mother
I write as a child, as a mother would understand
For I am a child
I write as a sister, as a brother would understand
For I am a sister
I write as a lover. as a lover would understand
For I am full of love,
I write as FRIEND...as only a friend would understand
No matter if I a woman, a mother, a child, a sister, a lover be
For friendship transcends status and decree
time and space,
action and face.

At any moment in time,
I come as I am, I write what I write
With nothing but this in mind
For the love of my fellow friends- the women in them, my friends- the children in them,my friends- the brothers they are, my friends whoever they may be..
I feel in me all these that you feel ever so strongly
I wish I dont have it in me...cursed be for me if I am understood wrongly, and judged unfairly
and no matter who I am, as perceived
I am just me...I am only who you want me to be, but you do not see,
Because I write....because of the writer.....in me.
This is my testimony
~UmmuAhmadain
25/10/09