The Sacrificial Lamb ...me and my patience

"Ummi, I can't seem to find my Baju Melayu." (the Malay national costume for males).

Every year it is the same old history. We buy him new baju melayu for Eidul Fitri, and he loses it before Eidul Adha. Every time it is the same commotion. You would think we both have learnt our lessons. I thought I had. Yesterday I asked him to go look for the shirt in preparation for this morning's prayer.

"I have found the pants, the shirt is somewhere. I will look for it," he had said.

I always try to give him the benefit of the doubt; to trust that at 13, he is big enough to take care of his own things. Unfortunately, history still repeats itself.

And, once again, I find myself shouting at him for misplacing it. We searched high and low for it in this house, in everybody's wardrobe...nay... I have the nastiest suspicion he wore it to school, then took it off for his undershirt (T shirt most likely) and then just forgets about it. That is what that has riled me so. Plus on top of that, the dad just goes off for the eidul adha prayer, leaving him behind.

And I blew my top...and now I feel lousy... not a pleasant feeling at all.

On Eidul Adha...the day of sacrifice...I sacrificed my patience...BUMMER!

My New Netbook

Alhamdulillah, by the Grace of Allah, today I got my new netbook - Dell 10" weighing just over 1 kg. With the colour of my choice, mind you - metallic purple. Simply beautiful and eye catching. I first saw this netbook at my sister's house - belonging to my grand nephew...and he is only 4!!!
Super cool! His was light blue in colour. As soon as I set eyes on this cute little gadget, I fell in love with it. So handy, so light. I knew immediately it would be ideal for my writing anywhere, any time. This was last Sunday, 15th November 2009.

It was then, that I decided to apply my Law of Attraction knowledge ... plus a lot lot of prayer to God. I imagined myself toting this cute little thing around wherever I go, I imagine the happy feeling I get to be the proud owner of this very handy gadget and merrily typing away on its keyboard. And I placed all faith that Allah will somehow make it happen for me. Mine is not to question how HE would make my doa come true; mine is just to have the unflinching faith HE would.

Lo and behold! Exactly one week since, I am now the proud owner of this cute but awesome little thing. Such is the power of unflinching faith God will fulfill - if only we were to ask ... and ask specifically. Alhamdulillah, all praise be to HIM.

(Taking this opportunity to emphasise here that this focusing on the positive, not merely wanting, but actually visualising ourselves happy with the thought, is a potent tool to getting what we want and intend to have in this life...and this include happiness, peace of mind, wealth. Try it - you will be surprised at how great the feeling is.)

Later in the evening, I went out to get a suitable carrier for this precious netbook of mine. And with the internet installed in this wifi zone in my house, I am on my way ... yay!!!

I only need to install Microsoft Word and then I will really be tapping away, deo volente.

O by the way, it comes in a 10" screen ... just to let it be known :)

A Short Short Story

She just stared at him; amazed that there was no anger in her after all that he had done to her. On the contrary, she felt slightly sorry at how pathetic he really was. He had resorted to the lowliest level, stooping so low as to stab her from behind; taking her unawares.

A rueful smile crossed her pale face.Yes, she had her share in all this too. Shaking her head slowly, she could not fathom now how she could be so trusting, so gullible. And in the end, she had to pay a high price for it.

She paid her dues - and now she is liberated. She watched as he conitnued his malicious lying and scheming against her....goodness, he was bent on degrading and humiliating her. She shook her head in silent wonder; just for that split second, that only the keen-eyed could detect, before, straightening her back, and pushing back her shoulders, she faced him squarely on the face.

"You can't harm me anymore...I am free of you. I don't hate you...I just feel sorry for you, and your pathetic life. Goodbye."

Before he could even say a word, she turned around, facing her back to him and continued walking....head held high on her straight back. She could hear his shouts, his curses, his rants. But..no more cowering. In fact, her hesitant smile slowly changed into a fully confident and satisfied one. She had made it....she was now surely and finally free of him.

Suddenly the dark cloudy sky seemed to give way for the moonlight to shine down on that still, silent night. She knew then, things were going to be okay....

She walked slowly away, leaving behind her gloomy past...a brighter future awaits her.